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Thursday, September 27, 2007

RANDOM 101

To start things out, please let me say:
"i never wanted to be the best dancer, i never wanted to be a dancer, it just so happens i did, i may not be the best but im having fun."
CHEERING PRACTICE TODAY WAS FRIGGIN HORRIBLE. like, yeah :)) I got embarrassed infront of highschool pipz. Damn it! They said "Polishing na lang tayo guys!"..
I didnt join cheerleading to be "polished" , i joined it coz i love to dance and i want to represent our team PURPLE STALLIONS. Okay, i know im starting to sound selfish. Actually, i dont think im starting to sound selfish,.. Im just saying what i want to say. And no one has nothing to do bout it. beh :P So un, when it was HHEERR turn. BWAHAHA! She had more mistakes than me! Tumatawa pa naman xa saken. Muntik ko na siya sabihan.. "Sus, ate! Ikaw rin naman. Mali2x. Tumatawa ka pa saken kanina.." yeap, But i regret NOT SAYING it. damn. I should've but lets not forget the statement: "..respect your elders.." CUT THE CRAP. whatever :P So there, enough about dancing. Lets talk about why im always sad or feeling down.

-im confused. very confused.
-I miss my grandood. I know he'll be okay. HE WILL BE OKAY.

Let me define the "im confused part" :
"I love you but im not suppose to, Do you love me? i guess we're not meant to be" - ANGELA BAGADIONG. That's A-N-G-E-L-A B-A-G-A-D-I-O-N-G :P

= im so confused, im not sure if i have feelings for him or not. Im not sure whether im suppose to like him or not. I have the right to but it just doesnt seem right. labo noh? Ganito kasi un... I know someone who loves him to death. I dont want to ruine our friendship over some guy. I like him. i lovED him. i did. but now im just plain confused. Do i love him? Do i really have to force myself not to? My feelings are taking over me. Instead of my brain being used, my heart starts getting a mind of its own. My feelings grew legs and wander around my body system--> Dunno where that came from. Im weak and im tired of waiting and expecting him to like me. im tired. im stressed and i need a break. Its just not meant to be.

PS. Not talking bout BUSHY here guys. Another dude. I just wont tell. Only Angela & Bagadiong knows who that certain dude is. So yeah, be curious. be very curious.

So where done with the "im confused part"... heres the I MISS YOU GRANDPA!
Mom is currently in HongKong to get her money. My tita is coming this saturday. I dont know when grandood is coming here to have his operation but i know whatever happens. HE WILL BE OKAY. :)

Saturday, September 22, 2007

OH NO!

Okay, my day was horrible. HORRIBLE. And i still cant get my grandpa outta my head. I miss him so much. Oh and btw, his operation is confirmed. He has grown a tumor somewhere in his tummy. Im sorry i dont specifically know where. Please, guys, help me here, i miss him. I WANT HIM TO BE A'RYT. i am positively sure that he's going to be fine after his operation. So there, still sad. But i have to be strong for him. So aun, MY DAY IS FREAKISHLY HORRIBLE. Im the "clutsiest" girl on earth. ugh! Darn it! So let me start defining my day:

Woke up 4am, couldnt go back to sleep so i decided to take a bath I AM SO STOOPID. i dont know why! So there, went back to sleep after my "showering at 4AM" ritual. what got into me? Anyways, woke up 8:30 again. Went outta my room, EVERYONE WAS ASLEEP. Does anyone know the purpose of alarm clocks?! Do they know what time breakfast usually starts? Weeiirrdd ffaammiilly. i love iit <3

9:00AM tried to sleep again. DIDNT WORK. damn. So yeah, played with mom's kikay kit. Who knew mom had a lot of make up?! :) So there, text. text. text. Texted kenneth and asked him where he is na, our conversation went like this:
ME: nsan ka na?
KEN: ppnta na ako,ikw?
ME: Nsa elevator pa.
KEN: Nsa skul ka na?
ME: Hindi ung elevator sa school. haha :P
KEN:Eh mrming elevator sa mundo, malay ko bka nsa mall of asia ka pa.
ME: hinde. Nsa Megamall lang. haha joke :P
KEN: D nga, sa elevator ng home mo? Yaman nio naman, sa sobrang laki may elevator pa.
ME: hello!? i live in a condo. NOSEBLEED.
KEN: Condom? yaaak!
ME: sbe ko CONDO! ang green minded mo!
KEN: Joke lang, ure so gullible nmn!
ME: Whatever. Nasan ka na ba?!
KEN: Nsa Pilipinas! ikaw? Nigeria?

Tinatmad n ako mag type. Tomorrow i will post again. Continueation for this post :) Im so tired okay? So there, babayoo!

Friday, September 21, 2007

Dear tatay :(

Dear tatay (grandpa),

I have been with you for countless years. And i am thankful that GOD has given me the perfect grandfather. And i thank you, too, for all the sacrifices you did for me. Mom just told me that right after i was born, you quit smoking and drinking. I know it was hard for you, but thank you :) And im thankful that you were patient. That you were always right by my side on whatever decision i make. But most of all i am thankful to call you my own. My own, grandfather who helped me to become the person i am today. If it werent for your guidance, and your support i wouldnt have the confidence to face reality. You taught me to be independent. If it werent for you, i'd still be depending on yaya's. If it werent for you, i'd be the laziest person on earth. But thanks to you, you taught me to deal with my own doings and made me realize that life is not all fun and laughter. Life could get serious at times, but all you have to do, is jam with it.

Im afraid to lose you. I'd like to spend every waking second with you. Even if were miles away, i want you to always think that i am and always be your little baby girl. The baby girl who you get mad at everytime i come home late. The baby girl who gets congratulated by you everytime i get a perfect score at a certain subject. I will never forget that smile you put on your face, it has always been a signal for me, knowing that even if im not the smartest girl, or even if im not the most talented girl, you were there for me. and PROUD. I'll never forget the time you had to cancel your activities whatsoever for my taekwondo competition. If it werent for you, no one would be coaching me. I wouldnt have gotten that silver medal which i owe to you. Ill never forget the kisses i gave you before i go to school. Ill never forget the "bless"'s i gave you everytime i come home from school. But most of all ill never forget you--My loving grandfather.

Now that your sick, i would like to ask GOD to shower his blessings upon you. I want GOD to help you through your pain. Coz i know, he will ber there for you-- and so will i. Dont you worry, i will always be by your side like you were in mine. Ill be your little girl all the way, ill be your guardian "angel", ill pray for you everyday, every night. Seeing you now would make me the happiest person alive. Saying goodbye? i'd be the saddest person on earth. As i was righting this post, tears were dropping, heart was pumping, oh the pain, make it stop. But whatever happens, ill be your little girl, your little ange, your little ang, ill be whatever you want to call me. Just dont leave us. BE STRONG, I KNOW YOU CAN MAKE IT.

*This letter is for my grandpa who is currently sick because of ulcer and will probably be undergoing an operation. Please pray for him. Thank you! :(

Your grand daughter,
ANG <3

Saturday, September 15, 2007

whatta day!

Okay, Since i cant recall what happened Monday & Tuesday,and i already made kwentu about wednesday. Thursday and Friday and saturday na lang. okidokie? :)

CORRECTION sa last post ko: ITS FFFRRAAAAZZZZ! haha. not farz or faz! haha :) im bad at remembering names... waaa o_0

Okay, lets start with Thursday:
We performed 3 times. Aus lang kasi i had free food! JOLLIBEE! wait, how do u spell that? haha :)... It was yummy! and between those shows we ate HAMBURGER! yay! haha. i saw bushy for like, how many times?! hehe :) love him sooo mats! Basta un na un! After the performance, FINALLY! i stayed with my friends. I miss dem sooo mats! hehe :) And then, i kwentu2x them about FRAZ ... di na FARZ! haha So un, ADiiiiK. de joke lang :) So un, they all left me. I was alone na lang sa school. EMO! haha corz not...

FRIDAY:
Waaah GALA NIGHT! everyone was there... parents, VIPs, photographers, ARTISTAS! shet! i saw many artistas, kaso nga lang, i dont know their names, i just know their faces. haha ang labo :P anyway, after our performance, diba we were waiving pagkatapos namin sumayaw, the dude in front of me holding a camera made *apir* with me and said "very good, very good"... Sana naman ma-discover. haha joke joke joke :D Tas un, picture2x with Amb. Soliven, shet sumasakit na cheeks ko sa kakasmile. It ended after one minute ata. yikkess! hehe :) so un, i saw my mom picturing us, so un. I changed sa room 5-- SOMETHING. i forgot. hehe :) Oh and vibes na pala kami ni FRAZ. haha. ang bilis mag-talk. So un, tulala lang ako. Then his classmate came and was noisy. So i said "....TUMAHIMIK NGA KAYO!..." taraaayy.. LOL. So bale, after the show, me and mom went to promenade. I changed sa CR kasi GOLD PA UNG PANTS Ko! haha. Un.... Sa wakas at nakauwi na ako! hehe

SATURDAY:
Ang aga ng practice! ppootteekkk! Yiikes. Atleast, may choreographer na. I learned dance steps na. And the headstand thing. Im still learning. hehe. 7:30AM-3:00PM

un, promenade after. gangster look ako! haha ang cute ng attire ni Mira! yehey! Me,Shannice, and Mira was so poor. BUT THANKS TO TEAMWORK, we were able to make P119.00!! yehey! and had ONE MEAL. atleast naman diba? Un, pikchoor2x! Kaso wala si Mira coz she went home na. DDAAMMNN. i had super duper fun. Then shannice went home. Me and mykee and czar went to teriyaki boy to wait for Czar's ride. Then, magttaxi kasi ako so i left them, i went to OB. ngek!! haha. Outside OB lang. I sadi hello sa mga guards. Grabe! u know what? i thought someone was going to snatch my bag. i was scared coz i was alone walking. Yiiiikkes! Buti na lang dumaan ako sa mga guards. haha! :) Then un taxi. Then went home... Then diretso sleep! yehey! LOL. sakit ng body koo!!!!!!! uugghhh!

Tinatamad na ako mag type. so, babayooo!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

BUSHY is LOVE.

Okay, today, i am a woman! haha <3 LOL. Anyway, im so happy.... and a little pissed kanina...and im tired now.. But what the heck, Blog pa rin ako! hehe :) Anyways, We had broadway practice 9:00AM-6:00PM

It was fun i tell ya! okay.. Kwentuhan time :)

FARZ OR FAZ?
Shet, there was this CUTE/HANDSOME 6th grader from Sta. Ana branch. Im not sure whats his name.. its either FAZ or FARZ?! Shet gwapo niya ha, infairness. So un, Kirsten and some other people i forgot (im so sorry..), wanted to know his name.. At first, parang i didnt like him. Like, wala lang.. Ganun, tas un, sabi ko kay Kirsten, "Sige, ako na mgaask!.. So they were like, "Cge go!"..
Sabi ko:
**waves** HELL0! Whats your name?
Then his friends started teasing him and pushing him to me :P And then sabi nang classmate niya, FAZ! or FARZ ba un? ewan :)) hehe.. So aun, they continued pushing him towards me, Un tuloy, When they pushed him, Pumunta siya diretso saken! As in, muntik na ako mahulog buti na lang ung ate sa 4th year caught me :) hehe.... Sabi ni ate "Aba, pang bodyguard lang pala kame.. HAHA!".. Aun, laughtrip. haha. Me and FARZ!! haha... Sorta hugged..LOL. AYee.... Kinikilig? LOL. Hindi ah, di ko xa crush! Si BUSHY lang saken :)

BBBBUUUSSSHHHYYY!
HAHA. So un, after those tulakan moments, the show was starting na so we watched... Alam ni kirsten na crush ko si BUSHY! haha okay lang noh!! i know her secret din nman eh! Crush niya si TOOT! haha... Okay, anyways, We were sitting at the very back.. as in the last few chairs at the back.. I watched BUSHY perform :) Ang cute niya talaga :P
After he performed, i introduced my self to FAZ or FARZ?! haha... Anyways, so un, tayo kami ni kirsten... Tas, umupo ulit si kirsten.. Ako, uhm, ewan...kalimutan ko na kung saan ako pumunta... Then, when i wanted to seat na to my place i saw BUSHY sitting on the same row as i am! HAHA. So parang ganito ung "format" :D=

KIRSTEN- WALANG NAKAUPO- BUSHY!

So Kirsten called me, tinuro niya si BUSHY. Xempre, umupo ako beside him! hahaha. Tawa lang kame ng tawa ni Kirsten! LOL. And then, BUSHY met up with his guy friends etc. Tas biglang, POOF- wala na! Umalis na! haha :) Peru atleast, i sat beside him!! haha....... YEHEY! :))

PEKE CP MO!
Naiinis talaga ako ni Acy! haha de joke lang.. Kasi naman. When i was saving FAZ OR FARZ number, i was using ate Alyana's phone. So pagkatapos, sabi ni Acy "gusto mo ako na hihingi ng number para sau?" Sabi ko, "Hello!? My number na ako! Kaso nga lang, ginamit ko ung phone ni Ate alyana..."... Tas sabi niya
"EH, PEKE NAMAN UNG CELLPHONE MO!...
I got offended ofcourse! So i made ganti.. As a joke, sabi ko:
"ANONG PEKE? SAU NGA WALA MANLANG CAMERA! ....
JOKE LANG UN HA! JUST SO YOU GUYS KNOW!.... Tas tumakbo xa.. parang umiiyak, PARANG! haha... Sabi ko, "Ui, Acy! Joke lanG! joke lang! ikaw kase!!! .....
Un pala, nagkukunwari lang xa, para makaganti! HUWAAAT?!?! hehe
So un, i got fooled twice! Darn! haha... LOL. We just laughded and laughed like we always do :))

So un, that concludes my day :) 09.12.07

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

why am i sad if im inlove? :(

This was the weirdest day ever :) Haha, no im kidding. Anyways, I have kwentu :) But i cant tell because people will start talking bla bla bla all that bullshit :) So yeah, i guess its safe if i dont tell anyone for the meantime :) But eventually i will tell someone 0_o ang lab0 ko :P

anyways, i am madly inlove with someone. His not handsome, His not tall, His not white, He has BUSHY HAIR. Yet i fell in love <3

His got the talent and he humors me even if he he doesnt know i exist :) I remembered the first and probably the last time he talked to me:
" UHM, nasan si Kenneth? " KABOOM- kung saan2x na lang ako tumuturo.. Darn it! I must've looked stoopido! darn darn darn! But he probably forgot about it :) Oh yeah, note to self: Make a good code name :) Mr. C is too obvious <3 ...
So there, to all who knows who i am freakin talkin about...
HERE'S THE CODE NAME: BUSHY... bushy kasi buhok niya :) Make sense now, does it? hehe :)
Ever since i liked him, i have always took the oppurtunity to "peep" his classroom window everytime i have to use the CR. I have been intimidating ever since, asking my classmates if they could go with me to the comfort room. Oh dizzle, i gotta stop this. Am i that crazy? I think so ?? Okay, fine, i admit, IM MAD. IM MAD. IM MAD. IM MADly inlove. kala niyo lang eh noh ? :D... Basta, i cant explain this feeling :( Its like i like him but.....i dont ? huwaat? This feeling's taking over me and i cant help it But someday ill understand that it wasnt him i was looking for. I dont even know him. Hell, does he not know me. Im just going to take every chance i get and hope someday, just someday, he'll finally notice me and realize im insanely WOAH o_0 <3 with HIM, My bushy <3

I must sound crazy but yeah, i am <3

Till here, Luv ya.... BUSHY! Oh and you,too :D

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Guess whose back?!

FINALLY! im back and a lot happened. A LOT. Everyone is already in a rush to practice the steps in broadway coz we only have 5 days more. And i, on the other hand, get all mixed up. Darn it! Cheerleading practice was yesterday. It was ayt. Except for the part where you cant feel your body in the morning. Huwaaaa!

FRIDAY:
10:00AM- 4:00PM:
Practice for broadway spectacle.
It practically ended at 4:20 or something.
Was in a hurry to meet up czar,shan,mykee,and mira and everyone else.
We finally met :)

5:00PM-8:00PM:
We had cheering practice! Gosh! i was so tired.
Atleast i learned the basic moves.
Men, i miss cheering :( So thats why i joined for our intrams :)
yahoo!
8:30-I FORGOT:
I bought a drink at all day right after practice.
Czar, Mira, Briytha, & Shannice went to promenade. i think?
Mykee went home together with her sister. i think?
Right after i bought a drink, i directly went to ate olive.
She's the bus driver.

Anyway, Now, im still exhausted. My shoulders are so...OUCH! But atleast i get to learn how to baby freeze. Like, finally! hahaha!

yeah, that doesnt really conclude my week But since i have no time, and im very tired because i just got home from practice and also because i cant barely move my shoulders, im going to end it here. haha parang nagbbreak up..LOL.joke... Oh and ill just continue this post tomottow, im just really tired now :( Till here lang guys! See ya!

PS. Mga guys! Text me naman oh! Unlitxt pa naman ako. hmph!